There are times that joy sneaks up on me. Like at 2 AM on a week night ,when I find myself awake, chatting online with a nighttime working friend and we share dreams and laughs and fears. When I eat yogurt in bed and look to see bright pink scattered throughout my room; pink rain boots, pink pillows, new pink phone case that someone gave me. Is it safe to say I have a favorite color?
It's been a long road to here tonight, but I truly honestly feel joy right now! Not the fleeting kind but the deep down in my soul joy that I know has marked my heart forever.
And do you want to know the secret to get here? It's not earth shaking, giant movements. It's the tiniest of steps, not even focusing on a big picture. Instead it's focusing on just the next step, the next best choice, and slowly trusting that I know where that foot needs to land next. I've had lots of guides along the way, some holding my hand,
some nudging me forward when I'm too scared to move.
And it hasn't been without some discomfort but believe me when I tell you the view from my heart in the wee hours of this morn, it was worth it! Joy is worth the effort!
Come join me!
